TOO TIRED TO FUNCTION!

This is me right now. Seriously.

Mother of...

Things are not going that great again. Well, at least it's snowing and lot. Still. I need to make a brochure of something of my own. I would have made a flyer for our band, despite it being mostly inactive, but our new keyboardist has given me hope.

Our boy, Goldeneye.

Miss Fudge.

I'm photographing my pumpkins, finding new settings from my camera every day. Not feeling so hot though, cough and sleep deprivation... Gotta toss a friend and her dog home, stay with the dog and do groceries for J and I. Don't want to... Be with the dog I mean.

Look at the size difference of these kitties. The black one is mine, the fudge colored is around the school area.

Let's continue

So... I sent audition video for The Voice of Finland. I sang Hunting High and Low, though in the end, I sung Malja much better. About that song...

I sung this today as I was hanging up the laundry and the few Forestry guys were sitting nearby and complimented the song, maybe even my singing, I didn't hear them over Jani and myself.

What else... Oh yesssss. We have a cat now. We cannot keep him in the dorm, so a friend is housing him. He's about 2-years old and a complete lapcat. Yellow eyes, otherwise he is pitch black. Such a playful charmer.

Kyösti (Goldeneye) is such a pretty boy <3 Here he is in our friend's lap in my car. He checked my car for mice XD

Aaaaaand theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen... I'm writing more fanfiction. I improved Winterheart's Guild, which became my flagship, my best fic so far. I'm making a sequel for it and made a major breakthrough just now. And found two new bands in the process. For My Pain... and Reflexion. Oh lord that singer. Wonderful voice and the most feminine looks I've ever seen on a guy. Juha Kylmänen is his name.

I can't help but think that I have two cats waiting for me...

 Sateenkaarisilta

Juuri taivaan tällä puolella on paikka, jota kutsutaan Sateenkaarisillaksi. Kun sellainen eläin kuolee, joka on ollut täällä erityisen läheinen jollekulle, tuo lemmikki menee Sateenkaarisiltaan. Siellä on niittyjä ja mäkiä kaikille erityisille ystävillemme, jotta ne voivat juosta ympäriinsä ja leikkiä yhdessä. Siellä on paljon ruokaa, vettä ja auringonpaistetta, ja ystävämme ovat lämpimässä ja niillä on hyvä olla. Kaikki sellaiset eläimet, jotka ovat olleet sairaita tai vanhoja, ovat jälleen terveitä ja elinvoimaisia; haavoitetut tai vammautuneet ovat jälleen eheitä ja voimakkaita, juuri sellaisia jollaisina muistamme ne menneitten aikojen unissamme. Eläimet ovat onnellisia ja tyytyväisiä yhtä pientä asiaa lukuun ottamatta: jokainen niistä kaipaa jotain jälkeen jäänyttä niille erityisen tärkeää henkilöä. Ne kaikki juoksevat ja leikkivät yhdessä, mutta tulee päivä, jolloin joku yhtäkkiä pysähtyy ja jää tuijottamaan etäisyyteen. Sen kirkkaat silmät ovat tarkkaavaiset, sen innokas keho vapisee. Yhtäkkiä se alkaa juosta pois ryhmästä kiitäen vihreän ruohokentän yli nopeammin ja nopeammin. Se on onnistunut näkemään sinut, ja kun sinä ja erityinen ystäväsi lopulta kohtaatte, te takerrutte toisiinne jälleennäkemisen riemussa ettekä koskaan enää eroa. Onnellisia suukkoja sataa kasvoillesi, kätesi hyväilevät rakastettua päätä, ja katsot jälleen kerran lemmikkisi luottavaisiin silmiin, jotka niin kauan olivat poissa elämästäsi, mutta eivät koskaan poissa sydämestäsi. Sitten ylitätte Sateenkaarisillan yhdessä...

Kirjoittaja tuntematon

Rainbow bridge

Just on this side of heaven, there is a place that is called Rainbow Bridge. When such an animal dies, that has been really close to somebody, that pet will go there. There are meadows and hills to all our special friends, so they can run around and play together. There are lots of food and water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and feeling fine. All those animals, that have been sick or old, are healthy and full of life again; wounded or crippled are whole and strong again, just like we remember them as in our dreams of days that were lost. They are happy and satisfied except for only one thing: They all miss something that was left behind, a special person. They all run and play together, but there will be a day, when one of them stops and starts to stare at the distance. Those bright eyes see all, energetic body will tremble.  Suddenly it starts to run away from the group, gliding over the green grass faster and faster. It has finally seen you, and when you and your specal friend finally meet, you cling to each other in the thrill of reunion and will never part again. Happy kisses rain on your face, your hands caress the loved head and you look into the trusting eyes of your pet again, the eyes that  were gone from your life for so long, but never from your heart. Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together...

Writer unkown
Translation: Darial Kuznetsova.

You're not the boss of me now

Fuck... The fabric paint on my Cain's Offering is partially cracked. AFTER FIRST WASH! Why do I have a feeling granny's "hand wash" is actually a stone wash? On top of all, she managed to stretch the bottom of the shirt while hanging it to dry. I feel like crying. And they keep wondering why I want the hell outta here? How about being able to do my own laundry so nobody destroys my clothes... Enough mishapen clothes for a lifetime in 5 years...
 It was stinking of cow shit and piss outside as soon as I got to Haapakoski and Tiistenjoki, the ultimate countryside... I nearly drove to the ditch when the stench hit from the car air vents... Ew... I just remembered why I hate spring in here. Constant shit and piss stink...

Just heard that if I was a cat, I would be:

Interesting. Really.

No matter what, now sit, watch and learn

Great. Why did I agree to go to Ikata for entrance exams, when I seriously don't want to go to that place?! I'm an idiot. Nothing more. 168km via the route I'm going to take. I'm exhaused already. *sigh*

Pay heed the squall

This is how I'm gonna be tomorrow. I have a day off. Currently I stink of even more sheep. Did a strap to the Sonata bag I made for my special someone, who is having a bad day. Let's see if I can make it all better.

Old pic of me, I don't look any prettier. Actually, even worse now. Can't look into the mirror anymore without feeling sick.

Live with the black sheep, live me with me

Quite literally. I smell of wool and Marseille soap. Not a nice combination. I did not feel like million bucks when I got back. On top of all, granny was dizzy, so I had to stay awake two hours just in order to help her out and help with the cooking. I failed the cooking part. Again. When I went to bed (I drooled in my sleep like a coma patient, honestly!), I felt like these had attacked me:

My patience today amazed me. Mostly people complained about having to deal with real sheep wool, I do find it comforting somehow, the scent/smell, I've taken care of a black sheep for a while as a kid, cow dung doesn't make me grimace much either. We had a dairy farm. Sure, the smell of wet wool and soap isn't nice when it clings you and in your home, you still can smell it on your skin. Sure enough I want to go and soak in a shower. Can't have a shower. Only sauna. FML.

Dunno what they thought when I was listening metal and picking the wool with the needle in a furious pace. I recall a comment: What a machine! What? San Sebastian from Sonata Arctica is one of the best for that. As Don't Say a Word is most suitable for twisting copper wire into rings and getting them ready for sawing. I have weird habits, I know. Gah, I was elbows deep in that wool... I'm SO scrubbing myself clean tomorrow.

A letter from Lappia arrived finally. interestingly, the both schools I got something from so far I applied for clothing... Do they want me to become a fashion designer and a seamstress? Howeveryouwritethatshit.



Sitting in the corner all alone...

This is pretty much how I felt last night. Damn.
My second youngest cousin asked if I could get to her birthday party on Thursday. Shame that Rantsila is that far away and I'll be working anyway. Promised to make a drawing and send shopping money ^^ 20€ is a lot to a 10-year-old, but I think she can use it well, she seems smart, after she got past the bratty phase. She used to hit me in the back at her bigsister's confirmation party. It hurt! Tiny fist thumping nastily on the junction of spine and ribs. I gotta draw her a summer them image, horse carriage and Hello Kitty. Wonder who's driving.
Car radio is down. Goddamnit. Got two nice candle holders though, they look Asian and I fell in love with those the second Tuulia showed them to me at the workshop. Also nicked three necklaces that would either go to be undone for new jewelry, or we could take 'em to ourselves. I spotted two Chinese ones and took them, ignoring Helka's request to get the other. I'm selfish, I know. Couldn't resist. Now I feel like doing Chinese type paintings on Japanese calligraphy paper. Fuck da police.

Tell me the color of the rain

Well it was white. Huge, white, fluffy snowflakes.
I also met a spider last night. Should have done this:

This is the beat

Just watched Fast & Furious 5. WHAAAAAT A MOVIE! I love fast and cool cars, even though I think it's the driver that matters the most, not the car.

I gotta say

Haven't laughed this much in ages XD