Gamer Girl Goals 2017

Been waiting Mini NES for over 9 months, it's FINALLY coming to me. And I need to now wait FFVII Remake and to gather enough money for PS4...
My otherwise crowded gamer goals for this year are:

- Get Yo-Kai Watch for 3DS
- Try to get through the one particular stage in Transformers Devastation
- Try level up at least a little in FFVII
- Restart the damn FFXIII-2
- Try out Assassin's Creed
- Get through Naruto Ultimate Ninja Storm Generations
- Get back into Dirge of Cerberus
- Improve Tekken skills.
- Train a bit more for Need for Speed and NHL

Email to Cassie Ho

Dear Cassie

Found your vids through my halfsister, I find your positive attitude contagious and at first, it made me start the beginners calendar and some assorted workouts to get my body to how I would like to see it. 30kg lighter (at least 25) and have at least a little tighter body. I fell short on all attempts. I... I can't keep up my motivation and they often fell apart THAT time of the month, when I was in too much pain and couldn't get away from bathroom to do what I wanted. Always restarting and restarting and just... not getting anywhere.

Moved to a new home with my now wife and yet again, I keep falling short. She is less enthusiastic about moving and that kills my joy of moving around, because I have hard time doing things alone, everything is more fun when done in good company, everyone knows this. I... I've always been plump, runs in the family and my granny, who raised me, shot me down once (and hard), saying that I would never lose weight, I was just like her. I had always been called fat and hated my looks that it was like punch to the gut. Last time I saw her, she begged me to lose weight so I wouldn't get sick. I know it, but I lack drive. Motivation. Space.

I know the problem is within me, but I don't know how to get on and actually change my life around. There is the want, the need, but... something is missing. I wish I could look at my wedding photo with a smile, but I look at it with disgust, at how bad the situation is...

I don't have money to join in to PIIT28 or anything and with my hopeless lack of motivation, it would be just waste of it, I know I'd fail it anyway. I know that attitude doesn't get me anywhere anyway, but... it's realism, really.

Well... if you read this miserable email, thank you and congrats for actually making it through.






~Darial

What a month...

Been having an on and off cough for a month, just called up on it and they said it's been going rounds, the persistent cough. Thing is, mine isn't contagious, so I'm starting to think it's dust and with our home filled to the brim with stuff and tons of dust... yeah... starting to think that is the case. Dust. But I cough outside and in the car (dusty) so... I don't get it. This stuck around since the cold.

Wedding's done and dusted

This is today's agenda. Ian is back again and we are binge watching Transformers Prime, doing artsy&craftsy stuff.

Oh joy

...but not to the world. I'm sick again. Last time I was sick it was back when I was working...

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...

New lights, same old mess, new hyacinth and same old story.

Been antsy about the advent calendar we've made for each other, a friend also sent us a string of tiny packages, filled with chocolate treats ^^ And kitty has a treat calendar as well, he seems to like it, so far. Yesterday's treats were a bit stiff to go down with him, but by morning, his bowl was nearly empty, with the other treat also gone.

NaNoWriMo 2016 is ovaaaaaaaaaaaaar!

It didn't go without consequences and therefore, I had booked a massage for tomorrow. She was super nice and also the type of person who can't keep her hands still, like us. We saw her add on magazine and she also had a campaign where she offered free, handmade gifts. She had made excellent kitchen towels. J picked blue and I picked orange. Now, the base of my skull hurts. It's not throbbing pain or anything, it's tender. As in, do not move a lock of your hair -tender. Oh, and my arm too. Left. Not the right. Which was .of, that is even more. Well, it hit later than I expected.

Yeah, NaNoWriMo... Started it day late, but I had solid 4000+ at the bottom, and a plot done 10 years ago, so I was on a good foundation. At first it was slow, but then, I finally got it rolling, mostly thanks to good music and the last straw that had 3000+word days was Two Steps From Hell's Star Sky and it's lyrics, that brought a whole new twist to the plot and made it epic as fuck. The villains are papery thin, tho...

Aurora season

Saw pretty good aurora tonight, while watching the torch parade (by canoes) and fireworks at the harbor. For some reason, now that I returned, I feel anxious and very, VERY nervous... I'm with fiancée and a friend here, plus the cat, yet I feel like crying and screaming.

Been pretty active week, returned from trip to hometown to get art on Sunday, slept nearly the whole Monday, built up the exhibition with J on Tuesday, visited on Wednesday, Thursday was our 1-year anniversary of living in Kemi, so we celebrated on that. Went to the international Market with a friend on Thursday and later that night, went for food and drink in Ankkuri. Revisited the International Market on Friday, been more or less comatose today and now just... crafting. Well, me not, I'm just... blah.

Art exhibition coming up!

The whole September ^^

Unemployment and The Sims

My job left me really confused about things and back to normal income is tricky. Real tricky. Plenty of moneyholes, mainly the bills and the car, the recently changed brakes keep helluva racket.

Had a friend over from Hamburg and after that extended weekend, felt like nothing would be the same afterwards. We miss her quite a deal and I think she would have stayed here forever. Kemi has that effect on people.

Our cleaned up apartment has actually stayed relatively clean for a surprising long time, maybe thanks to the Olympic Games, we spent the nights watching sports and slept the days. Now that it's over, we're trying to get our sleep pattern to the levels of a normal person. Not going that well, our The Sims 2 cheat and play spree is hindering that. Not that I regret it tho.

Currently I'm running on short nap I just took, should go to the Arctic Comics Center to see what could be brought into the display considering our works. I have one big WIP waiting for finishing touches and then I need to dig up all the old ones that I have with me. I can even get some fabric works into there, Shame that the The Final Rise is at home and medieval banner is still WIP... And my circlets are at home. Maybe some barbie dresses would be great.

My shins are killing me right now, I mean, they are constantly like on edge of cramping and that just sucks donkey balls.

We were supposed to have several friends and relatives visiting, in the end, just one friend visiting.