Saturday, May 31, 2014

Back in personal hell

Back in home village, I'm ready to cry everytime I look at our cat, he's such a darling. Evil, but I love him. Went to buy a pair of jeans, returned with something else, but at least I have new pants. And met a friend, ran into her in the clothes' store.
Also took up playing Anno Online. Decent game, a bit slow, but entertaining. I wish I could have played Ancient version, but Medieval works too.

Monday, May 19, 2014

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

That ruined even my next year...

I can't be here the next year. Only until Christmas. Fuck this fucking shit. She needs me the whole year, especially during the spring. And I can't be there... Can I cry now?

Monday, May 12, 2014

So, I'm in a real band project now...

...sure, it's giving me anxiety attacks, but damn, he can compose and already composed one of my songs. He sure kicked things into gear, already ordered band shirts and there's just us two, no bassist, guitarist, nothing.

And we are very tight on money this month. VERY tight on money...

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Friday, May 9, 2014

The usual shite.

I make enemies as I go. With or without trying. They just can't handle me.

Yes. I just be myself and they fly off the handle. People up here can't take the truth that has hardly any effect on people in my hometown. I'm not changing my attitude because few teens get upset.

Bitch to me all you want, little shits. I don't actually care if you'll hate me, ignore me or just act plain bitch towards me.
In the end, silent treatment from other people is good, I didn't wanna talk to them in the first place.
That's what I've been seeking for years. People steering clear away from me, since I don't care about them.
When they TRY to contact me...
Hmm, wonder was that all? Fuck this, fuck that, fuck them in particular.

This could be my new motto:

Limbo, my old friend

 Jesus Christ. I just can't take this shit anymore.  I've been on suspension from my unemployment support until yesterday. Everythin...