Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Oh joy

...but not to the world. I'm sick again. Last time I was sick it was back when I was working...

Monday, December 5, 2016

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...

New lights, same old mess, new hyacinth and same old story.

Been antsy about the advent calendar we've made for each other, a friend also sent us a string of tiny packages, filled with chocolate treats ^^ And kitty has a treat calendar as well, he seems to like it, so far. Yesterday's treats were a bit stiff to go down with him, but by morning, his bowl was nearly empty, with the other treat also gone.

Friday, December 2, 2016

NaNoWriMo 2016 is ovaaaaaaaaaaaaar!

It didn't go without consequences and therefore, I had booked a massage for tomorrow. She was super nice and also the type of person who can't keep her hands still, like us. We saw her add on magazine and she also had a campaign where she offered free, handmade gifts. She had made excellent kitchen towels. J picked blue and I picked orange. Now, the base of my skull hurts. It's not throbbing pain or anything, it's tender. As in, do not move a lock of your hair -tender. Oh, and my arm too. Left. Not the right. Which was .of, that is even more. Well, it hit later than I expected.

Yeah, NaNoWriMo... Started it day late, but I had solid 4000+ at the bottom, and a plot done 10 years ago, so I was on a good foundation. At first it was slow, but then, I finally got it rolling, mostly thanks to good music and the last straw that had 3000+word days was Two Steps From Hell's Star Sky and it's lyrics, that brought a whole new twist to the plot and made it epic as fuck. The villains are papery thin, tho...

Saturday, September 3, 2016

Aurora season

Saw pretty good aurora tonight, while watching the torch parade (by canoes) and fireworks at the harbor. For some reason, now that I returned, I feel anxious and very, VERY nervous... I'm with fiancée and a friend here, plus the cat, yet I feel like crying and screaming.

Been pretty active week, returned from trip to hometown to get art on Sunday, slept nearly the whole Monday, built up the exhibition with J on Tuesday, visited on Wednesday, Thursday was our 1-year anniversary of living in Kemi, so we celebrated on that. Went to the international Market with a friend on Thursday and later that night, went for food and drink in Ankkuri. Revisited the International Market on Friday, been more or less comatose today and now just... crafting. Well, me not, I'm just... blah.

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Unemployment and The Sims

My job left me really confused about things and back to normal income is tricky. Real tricky. Plenty of moneyholes, mainly the bills and the car, the recently changed brakes keep helluva racket.

Had a friend over from Hamburg and after that extended weekend, felt like nothing would be the same afterwards. We miss her quite a deal and I think she would have stayed here forever. Kemi has that effect on people.

Our cleaned up apartment has actually stayed relatively clean for a surprising long time, maybe thanks to the Olympic Games, we spent the nights watching sports and slept the days. Now that it's over, we're trying to get our sleep pattern to the levels of a normal person. Not going that well, our The Sims 2 cheat and play spree is hindering that. Not that I regret it tho.

Currently I'm running on short nap I just took, should go to the Arctic Comics Center to see what could be brought into the display considering our works. I have one big WIP waiting for finishing touches and then I need to dig up all the old ones that I have with me. I can even get some fabric works into there, Shame that the The Final Rise is at home and medieval banner is still WIP... And my circlets are at home. Maybe some barbie dresses would be great.

My shins are killing me right now, I mean, they are constantly like on edge of cramping and that just sucks donkey balls.

We were supposed to have several friends and relatives visiting, in the end, just one friend visiting.

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

What a feelin'

Just kill me now.

Got the IUD last week's Monday, those cramps, followed vby PMS and then the issue itself... Been in pain for days, but now however. I'm NOT having stomach cramps. My legs hurt from the aerobic session at workplace activity day, my head, neck and shoulders hurt from me idiotically driving with my windows rolled partially down. Fuck that was STUPID. I just want to fall to the bed and sleep for a week. I'm so dead tired.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Star Wars Day & Civil War

Yesterday was Star Wars Day. Bought some pizza for it, but watched the Episode VII this morning/night. Were too tired to finish it though. I'm having a day off from work, been sleeping very little lately, so this came in perfect time. I gotta go to work tomorrow morning, which is ok, I'll be doing a paper plate dream catcher model, maybe fixing up a stuffed tiger. I'm planning to make it a laid back day.

Gonna go watch Civil War today. Finally. Took us long enough, but I'm often drop dead exhausted after a workday, I need too much sleep to be able to work from 8 to 4...

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Sick again

We got the cold from somewhere. No idea from where, but considering I work with kids... I had started to feel cold for about a week and then my throat felt weird. Well, yesterday my nose started running and I had hoped that by today, it wouldn't be runny. Well fuck, was I wrong. Felt like death when I woke up to go to the bathroom at almost 4am, then woke up 6:30 when our cat tried to vomit. He's been yowling at my feet the whole morning and I just don't have the energy for that.
I am worried about tomorrow's work, it's the open art and there will be over 30 kids and parents and I'm a walking sick bag... I don't wanna take a sick leave either, so... Should finish up my tea, pack my lunch and change clothes... and to remember to take a whole roll of tp to work so I can stuff pieces to my nose or blow.
Slept less than three hours the previous night and around five this night, needless to say, I'm exhausted. Once I get out of work, I'm taking a nap.

Monday, April 25, 2016


Yle pulled a shit move. They had a story about the "Full day losers" from Kemi, who don't have a job. Well that makes people feel better and seek out jobs. Seriously, 500 000 unemployed people in Finland. How many available jobs? 16 000. Do the math. Do the fucking math.

We both here and I'm sure many others, would love to have a job corresponding their profession. They are almost forcing people to nurse schools. I know several nurses who are unemployed. My stepmom for example. The only job available is for night shift and she has to take care of my dad and back then, her own sick mother and a baby. Well, the said baby is moving out to study and her mother resting in peace, but dayum, there's still my dad.

Thank god I'm only temping, the job is... definitely not my thing. You can get into that if you have either studied anything dealing with arts, or kids. I'd say preferably kids. Art students might not be good with kids. I'm not, the kids just stick to me like Velcro.

The full day losers are politicians, they simply suck their own cunts and dicks. They just raised their salaries. They just sit on their asses and screw things up as a profession. They are taking away from the already starving students and they have the biggest salaries in the fucking country. They want kids to study, but it does cost a lot. Not all can stay at home and study from there. Food prices are fucking high and it's just... When we were at Lappia, our courses were expensive material wise. There were times, when we had no money for food for a week and no gas to get any from 3km away and seriously, 3k with a backpack filled with food is torture. One litre of milk weighs about 1kg... Hadn't our families sometimes sent us money and a friend's family come to our aid from 50km away, we might have been forced to quit. School leftovers were great, but damn...

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Coming down with something.

Just great, but what did I expect, a work mate is coughing her lungs out, I've been surrounded by kids 3 days a week, one just sneezed right in front of me... I've been cold for days, but then again, it's been quite cold recently and I've been switching jackets... should have stuck with the winter coat still.
Haven't gotten overly much sleep during work days and been almost nodding off at work during quiet afternoons. Right now I put on some Vicks, trying to stay awake. My thighs actually hurt a bit. Thank god friend promised us a sauna, pancake and tea later today. It'll hit the spot.

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Frag this...

Sauna last night washed out all the stress and prissiness about my work, which is good. It's not my fault. None of it that is going on.

I don't know how to do my job and if I ask... Oh well, enough of that, we just started our weightloss project properly. Our wedding is less than a year away.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

I don't do well with responsibilities

I'm childish and I'm now a temping children's instructor. Oh god... Day two is done and I'm just... a wreck. Sure, I've been sleeping poorly, thanks to the cat, but I'm also very...unsure...

Friday, April 1, 2016

Not again

April Fool's Day is one of the shittiest days of the year, hands down. I call it Don't-Trust-Anything -day. I stood up all night and in the early morning, I bailed out of fb. No fucking chance to fool me. Even my phone is closed.

I'm drowning in both stuff and in unfinished projects. I really need to clearly pick up one project per day. I think scheduling shit might become easier once I start my job. It's mostly from 8AM to 4PM, so... My sleeping pattern is still off, since I just woke up. I hate going to sleep while it's light, makes it so much harder to fall asleep and the goddamn schoolkids are trying to show off with their mopeds and scooters by driving full throttle. They just shorten their vehicles lifespan. Idiots.

Well anyway. I seem to have somesort of a cough, but I always cough in the morning, but my nose is runny too and ears feel... tender, but that is most likely just because of my teeth. I really should stop skipping brushing. Well, clear day routines cure that too.

Yay, my turn to scoop kitty litter... He has a disgusting habits. If he gets to the wet bathroom, he comes outta there, goes to his litter box and once his paws are sticky with the damp, clumping litter, he runs into the bed. Our bed. Oh joy. The other one is jumping on the kitchen counter and trying to see if he could drink from the sink AFTER coming out of his litter box. Our kitchen is small and full and I'm constantly have to clean that so I have at least one clean surface. And then BOING. *sigh* Kitty owner's daily life, everybody.

Tuesday, March 15, 2016


...I have a job now. A legit job. I just still need to get them my criminal records, which I have none. I'll be temping a regular worker at Children and Youth Center, for 3½ months. Pay is good, hours rather long, but hey, I'm a kid magnet!

Sunday, February 28, 2016


Been rather busy, had visitors, had to clean up, been expanding DoWo as much as I can, should probs clear the dish mountain a bit, at least the baking tools. Made mocha pie. It's just a pan with chocolate mocha frosting. Put some dark chocolate on top of it. Now I'm just thinking did I put too much coffee in it.

Job interview tomorrow. At first I was erroneously let know that it'd be on next month, then I got a call, "oh it was supposed to be yesterday", so they moved it to Friday. Then they called me on Friday and moved it on Monday. I'm nervous, but my biggest worry is, will it pay more than Kela pays to me. We are very dependent on Kela, when our winter rent is 450€ with the car heating. Sure, it's only like... 3½ months, but... Only three were invited, I was one of them. At the Lasten Kulttuurikeskus, something to do with kids. I'm a kid magnet, I'm just not the biggest kid person around. Left to be seen.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Out of Control

Sheesh... Sorry for the silence, been on an emotional rollercoaster and rather reluctant in writing anything. 

Christmas was great, I enjoyed, even though it broke the age old traditions. I've spent 23 Christmases at home, doing the same traditions, getting up early, watching Santa's hotline for kids, didn't get through as a kid, then The Snowman and the new addition, The Snowman and Snowdog. Then decorate the tree, the rest of the house, with gramps of course. Then lounge about until the evening, Jiminy Cricket's show and then presents, more lounging about and food and stuff, then fiddling with presents until I pass out. 

This Christmas was different. We wanted to spend the Christmas with just us and the cat, going to Christmas sauna at dinner at friend's place. Presents were opened while we watched Santa's Hotline, got awesome presents and all. Took candles to the graveyard, every graveyard in Finland had a stone or cross for people with relatives buried elsewhere to take their candles to. 

J's birthday party on 27th was a total flop, which made me cry. Many people were invited, I understand the flat out refusals, while some never responded are they coming... The friend from nearby, Sonja, baked muffins and the cake, while I handled the rest and we did the decorations together. J's best friend drove 450km to come to the party and brought even more goodies to eat. We did have laughs, the theme was Decepticon party and all 4 of us are fans. Otherwise, I was sorely disappointed at people. Two who were certain they'd come, got sick just before.

New year was nice, the Kemi fireworks were nice and Sonja's family came for coffee to warm up afterwards. It was pleasant night and our cat was pretty ok with all the fireworks, more confused than scared. 

Well, I'm gonna do something productive now, I'll write more laters. 

Slice of Life: Whirlwind end of summer

I'm still rather windswept with everything that happened. Am now a moderator of a doll group, thanks to my ability to detach my emotions...