Thursday, October 15, 2015

1½ down, infinity to go

Been living here since 1st of September, I still get the out-of-this-world -feeling occasionally. I lived 5 years with half of my shit packed away, important stuff in two places and not knowing when I gotta pack or having a deadline when I need to have everything packed and start thinking about moving back. It's just so surreal at times.

The cat's gotten homely quite fine, he's being a cutiepie and an asshole quite efficiently.


Friday, August 21, 2015

FYI

We got an alert of a cheap rental apartment in Kemi and decided to go to take a look as we went to see our good friend, Ookami no Mori, when we found few others and as the first one was taken because we waited for too long, J took matters to her own hands and made the call, rescheduling the apartment visit and half an hour later, while the second visit to Oklaholmankatu failed (he had been given entirely wrong keys), we took it before the student boy and his mother could, so now, we have a rental apartment in the middle of fucking Kemi! Our dream city. We simply fell in love with the laid back seaside city.

We had the office run today and once we move and get things settled, we officially change our addresses.

Our homes took it well, I was expecting a shitstorm from my grandparents, but they don't seem to be angry, disapprove the fact I will take my cat with me and we are going with my car for now. He thinks my car is too old... She's just fine, I say. Now I just need to figure out what to take with me.

Had an anxiety attack at the sauna, freaking out and crying, having bottled it up for half a week. I'm sure we'll be fine, I just... broke down. I'm not overly sure why, maybe just... was overwhelmed. Our friend's family was so much help it's unreal.

Oh well, I gotta quit writing for now and start baking, promised to bake blueberry cookies and muffins. Packing and searching for my shit begins tomorrow.

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

*another sigh*

I'm getting shit poured down my neck from every possible direction and I'm ready to go live as a hermit for a month just to get my sanity back. I need my space and silence, which are nonexistent in this house.
For me, getting a loan is like signing your death warrant, but I'm considering getting a loan so I can get a rental or something from the north and get the hell away from here as soon as I can. I'm a harried ball of stress, everyone wants something from me and I just can't get myself to give even the proverbial shit. Or fuck. Or rat's ass... I'm just... so... done...
Everything I say or do comes back around, as usual, that is nothing new and I can deal with it, I can't be bothered to try to understand people, because I've run out of patience. There is always somebody wanting something of me and I really just want to be by myself for a while. I guess it's too much to ask... I know I make it all about me, but I'm fed up doing what people say or want. Right now I could just cry...

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Little moments of happiness

I completed the workouts for today, also baked some cocoa-matcha muffins, called for a dentist, cleared out the clutter in my computer a bit... Also my cat came to sleep next to me this morning, when I finally came to bed. I loved it, he purred me to sleep <3

Anyways, my desktop has had a myriad of problems, since it has W8.... Yesterday it went to BIOS all of a sudden and a skype video calls crashes skype completely. I've also tried to download the updates for over a year, but it keeps failing. I contacted the PC repair nearby and he suggested I take care I save all the important stuff and get W7 back to it. Yea, agreed. Sure, W8 has it's perks, I fell in love with OneNote, but it's only one of the pros, the others being the quick startup and the hella stylish lock screen. W7 is steady, simple and did I mention reliable? Sure, this laptop can be a bitch, but right now, it's the second best computer in the house, best being my gramps'.
I just need to save the game files, I mean, I did hella lot of work on The Sims 2 and Neighbors from Hell, the latter is a game duo I can go through again, but The Sims 2 is a whole 'nother story. Maybe I could just... try to save the Selenia neighborhood I've created.

*sigh* It's nice outside and I should go out, but I just completed workouts and they have my legs a little... spaghetti'sh. Sure, I have lots of crocheting to do, but my fingers still protest last night, considering carpet is a heavy work. Especially the type of rag I'm using...

I hope I can... get my photos organized... They and music take a shit ton of space. Maybe I'll just put on some anime and sort through the photos. Not Samurai Champloo tho, it has 26 episodes, I only found 20 on the DVDs and I completely pissed off with the episode 16... I'm not too much into hiphop and the Japanese rapper trio was just the last straw...

Friday, May 22, 2015

POP-pilates and stress

My jogging views are boring, tho it's a lot greener now...
Well, found a new hobby, that is actually good for losing weight. Cassie Ho's POP pilates. It's fun and she's very positive. I need a lot support for this and someone to do it with me, but so far, it's not going that strong. I'm doing it alone and try my darnest to get rid of the junk food. I try. But as I know from my past, me trying my hardest is never even half of being enough. I've shed only 1½kg so far, but it's a start.

Completed a puzzle last night, it was one of the hardest I've ever done, it's tempting to start the metallic puzzle again, THAT is also hella hard, since the light needs to come in a certain angle OR I can't see anything but a metallic sheen.
Coral Reef Panorama, 1000 pieces. 


I also managed to get my room in half a shape, but with visitors and all, I'm have to gather shit from downstairs and put it anywhere I can, so my room is cluttered AGAIN. I'm getting really frustrated with living here, but I can't get a fucking job so I don't need to put up with them 24/7. This ain't the most recent photo either, but oh well.

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Oops...

It's been ages, tells how busy I've been, tired and stressed out. Right now it's the last day of my holiday, we leave tomorrow.

Well, that is the finished stand, it was tiring two days.


Limbo, my old friend

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