Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Hello depression slump

Just got back from the dentist. It's pouring sleet. Terrible weather. That is not the depressing thing though. I have gingivitis and lot of holes. Had to make the decision to leave all sugary stuff behind. I'm up for serious dentist visits which will deplete my money. Dental care here is much better. Had the wake up call of my life. I'm only able to cry myself into sleep right now, since nobody is helping me but myself. No support. It would be nice if we both could make that life changing decision, but my sweetheart just didn't seem to take it that well.

I'm off to bed and cry some more, we need to go baking around 5pm.

I'm destroying my life with how I live. And that of my darling along with my own. This has to change.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Soreness

Been cramped for ages, not to mention tired from lack of sleep. The Halloween party at school is on 31st, I made the posters for it, now I should do posters for my face paint booth too. Bought hella lot of facepaint. Seriously. And some deco. And lovely outfit for my darling. This Halloween will be awesome. Brr, I'm gonna go and get my SA hoodie right nw, I'm cold.

Better. onna watch both Cars movies. I had to return to Kemi today, since  paid 15€ extra for Cars 2. I literally paid it twice. Goddamn. Also had astonishing view, problem was the lack of camera... And then the last 30km back was driven in a fog.

I've been crocheting a lot of pumpkins, 5 ready, one big with still a slightly unfinished face. Gonna do some more for the party.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Back in the hell on earth

Or that is how I view my home village. I don't like the looks of it, I don't like the people in it. Sure, my grandparents might -not- deserve all this hate, but damn do they drive me up the wall.They do their hardest for and I just brush them aside. Why? I want to start a life anew, in a new place, with my love, leave all the bad memories behind, start finally the life I've been dreaming about. But as long as they are alive and screaming fo rmy attention too (which I don't care to give but to the few selected), I can't start anything new. I can only pretend I'm living my life as I've wanted, when I can't do anything without them finding out.
I'm have to hide the thing that is the most important thing in the world, love. I cannot come home with my love and huggle, cannot kiss in the middle of the street, can't hold hands while window shopping... Only in few bigger cities, is that possible. Up in Lapland, nobody really seems to care. They know how to mind their own business. No nasty rumours.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Autumn leave

We got a permission to stay in the dorm, which probably is rare. We don't care to go home and I don't wanna drive in the rain, I can't see a thing, but whacha can do, we need to take extra stuff back and I need to bring stuff here, including new movies, maybe some books and my cosplay gear. The cold I finaly got rid of is also trying to come back,which bugs me to the core.

My artblog is also updated, finally. Took me long enough. Now I just hope people would actually go there and comment...

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Sonata Saturday

It had some speed. We had bought glow sticks from Kemi on Friday and took our PS3 for updating (we miss a 60€ equipment for updating). We got "home", started preparing for the gig. We left for Keminmaa around 1pm, from where a friend and her dad picked us up and we drove to Oulu. We left earlier than planned because I heard Sonata Arctica has a signing session in RecordShopX, so of course we went there. (bought games and the Stratovarius Blu-Ray while at it.) Got my lyric notebook signed by the boys, along some good luck wishes from Tony.
We got too excited with the glow sticks, but it paid off. Domination Black was the warm up band. Nothing much, I've heard worse music, but I wouldn't buy their stuff. Not my style.
Then. Finally. Sonata. Frickin'. Arctica. This was the shit! All The Days of Grays songs were ditched (shame, but I think after 2-year tour... yeah...) One of my fave oldies The Gun came up and I thought I was gonna have a stroke. Tony noticed us with the glowsticks. He also spotted somebody with a knife or something in the back of the audiece and the big guys started to walk around. I heard about this only after the gig, once we saw a police car outside.
Few things bugged me. We were once again right in front of Elias. Not that I don't mind, but I with to see more than just him and maybe a glimpse of Henkka behind him and Tony occasionally. Also, two bitches mistook the spot by the fence as a dancefloor, narrowing my space. Never put your hair up on a bun as big as your head when you go to a metal gig. Nor do you wear pink. Sheesh. Other duo of bitches threw a missed fit when they got Elias' picks, other actually snatched it from another girl. I've lost my faith in Sonata fans, the newest fans re complete bitchs and have no respect towars the guys whatsoever. They and the Elias-sucks-get-Jani-back -fans drive me up the wall.
Anyways, nice gig, pyros and all, good songs, decent audience. Finnish metal fans aren't really into it...

There went our money

Damn that was one expensive weekend. I'll get back to it later, I got band practice to attend to. I'm taking them a huge pile of my lyrics. Gotta find out how it works, at least me and the drummer, Unna, get along. The bassist took off though...

Saturday, October 6, 2012

That sucked

Just heard Adele's Skyfall. I don't like Adele and the song is just pure shit.

Anyways, Sonata Arctica gig today, looking forward to it, but I'm gonna hate he drive to Keminmaa, where we leave with our friend and her dad to Oulu. It rains more than in London or in Helsinki during major sports events. Seriously depressing. I think I'm gonna pass out in the car, once we hit the highway. Oulu isn't overly far away from where we live now, but still. Deleting old pics from the camera took a loooooong while. Anyways, we need to be in Keminmaa around 1pm.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

LibreOffice 3.5

Now that is shitty. I LOVE and ADORE Ms Word, that was an IT class from hell, when the things I could have done with Ms Office products in five minutes took 20 minutes with Libre... It sucked big time.

Sonata's gig this Saturday. I'm so hyped! Which of the band shirts should I wear... Girly problems for once.

Limbo, my old friend

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