Friday, October 13, 2017

Ragnarok Yuletide - Christmas Is Here (accurate lyrics)

Northern lights, shining on winter nights,
Warming us deep inside,
Once more a reason,
To uphold our faith, in the human race,
Now as we celebrate this yuletide season

Christmas is here! Let's sing a song together,
Another year, let the music go on forever,
Christmas is here! Bring out the joy together,
Lasting forever and forever 'cause Christmas is here!

Lend an ear, to people who live in fear,
Reach out to be sincere,
Comfort the sorrow

Try to show the way,
To those who have gone astray,
Creating a brand new day, a new tomorrow

Christmas is here! Let's sing a song together,
Another year, let the music go on forever,
Christmas is here! Bring out the joy together,
Lasting forever and forever 'cause Christmas is here!

Let me, to forgive the past,
Searching for the truth that lies ahead,

We all know that the tree will last,
Just like the wise man once said,
Yeeee-aaaaa-aaaaaaa-aaaahhhhhh

Christmas is here! Let's sing a song together,
Another year, let the music go on forever,
Christmas is here! Bring out the joy together,
Lasting forever and forever 'cause Christmas is here!

Christmas is here! Let's sing a song together,
Another year, let the music go on forever,
Christmas is here! Bring out the joy together,
Lasting forever and forever 'cause Christmas is here!

Thursday, September 7, 2017

Challenge for the weekend

Take this song, listen to it once first, then, open your writing media, put it on again and start writing. The duration of the whole song. What ensues, see if it's working and then, save it and join me in the most creative challenge of the year. Join me in the forces of National Novel Writing Month, the League of Extraordinary Writers.


Wednesday, August 9, 2017

13 days

And things have gone to hell at work. I just sent an open application to a supermarket, I'm just so done with this. I can't handle all this stress. I can't handle all the negativity we get and I can just work and sleep, work and sleep. I'm done. I'm just so done...

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Mental breakdown

Searching for a new apartment, all the while having our biggest financial struggle and my mental health is starting to break down. I can't handle things like this!!!!!!!! I'm weak and pathetic and motherfucking whiny-ass bitch!

Friday, July 28, 2017

Fucking ow again

This will be a summer from hell. And I've wanted it to be over as soon as the temps climbed over 18C the first time. Fuck this. FUCK THIS.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Day 2: OW

Can't say much about my job, except that OW. My feet are killing me and so far, 8 hours is just too much for me. 6 I can handle, but 8 leaves me crying from pain and exhaustion. I hope my legs can get better at handling the shoes and the walking in less than the previous 3 weeks of sore feet.
If not... Not sure how can I handle rest of the summer, because I'm totally looking for the winter....


Monday, July 17, 2017

A message to the moronic, no-life bullies who tormented me

After all you put me through,
You think I'd despise you,
But in the end I wanna thank you,
'Cause you've made me that much stronger

Well I thought I knew you, thinkin' that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames cause your greed sold me out in shame
After all of the stealing and cheating you probably think that
I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do, I wouldn't know
Just how capable I am to pull through
So I want to say thank you
Cause it
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Never saw it coming, all of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in on a good thing before I'd realize your game
I heard you're goin' round playin', the victim now
But don't even begin feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies cause you're wanting to haunt me
But that won't work anymore, no more,
It's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now and never back down
So I want to say thank you
Cause it
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to know the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
You won't stop me
I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
You thought I would forget,
But I remember
'Cause I remember
I remember
You thought I would forget,
But I remember
'Cause I remember
I remember
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter


Except I don't wanna thank you. I still wanna end you. 

Monday, June 5, 2017

Damn

Wifey at lab, I stayed behind to clean. Better hustle then =) Friend coming over soon <3

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

OMG vol 2

I think I got myself a job after this job. Am I good or am I good!

OMG


Well, that was worth getting up

and putting my pants on. I just got myself 6 months job ^^ Gonna be taking care of the city flower beds and such. I hope I'm good enough at it.


This was basically me when I skipped home, happy like a loon.















Btw, this performance down here... is illegally hot. I mean... LADYBONER ALERT!

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

Gamer Girl Goals 2017

Been waiting Mini NES for over 9 months, it's FINALLY coming to me. And I need to now wait FFVII Remake and to gather enough money for PS4...
My otherwise crowded gamer goals for this year are:

- Get Yo-Kai Watch for 3DS
- Try to get through the one particular stage in Transformers Devastation
- Try level up at least a little in FFVII
- Restart the damn FFXIII-2
- Try out Assassin's Creed
- Get through Naruto Ultimate Ninja Storm Generations
- Get back into Dirge of Cerberus
- Improve Tekken skills.
- Train a bit more for Need for Speed and NHL

Monday, April 3, 2017

Email to Cassie Ho



Dear Cassie

Found your vids through my halfsister, I find your positive attitude contagious and at first, it made me start the beginners calendar and some assorted workouts to get my body to how I would like to see it. 30kg lighter (at least 25) and have at least a little tighter body. I fell short on all attempts. I... I can't keep up my motivation and they often fell apart THAT time of the month, when I was in too much pain and couldn't get away from bathroom to do what I wanted. Always restarting and restarting and just... not getting anywhere.

Moved to a new home with my now wife and yet again, I keep falling short. She is less enthusiastic about moving and that kills my joy of moving around, because I have hard time doing things alone, everything is more fun when done in good company, everyone knows this. I... I've always been plump, runs in the family and my granny, who raised me, shot me down once (and hard), saying that I would never lose weight, I was just like her. I had always been called fat and hated my looks that it was like punch to the gut. Last time I saw her, she begged me to lose weight so I wouldn't get sick. I know it, but I lack drive. Motivation. Space.

I know the problem is within me, but I don't know how to get on and actually change my life around. There is the want, the need, but... something is missing. I wish I could look at my wedding photo with a smile, but I look at it with disgust, at how bad the situation is...

I don't have money to join in to PIIT28 or anything and with my hopeless lack of motivation, it would be just waste of it, I know I'd fail it anyway. I know that attitude doesn't get me anywhere anyway, but... it's realism, really.

Well... if you read this miserable email, thank you and congrats for actually making it through.






~Darial

What a month...

Been having an on and off cough for a month, just called up on it and they said it's been going rounds, the persistent cough. Thing is, mine isn't contagious, so I'm starting to think it's dust and with our home filled to the brim with stuff and tons of dust... yeah... starting to think that is the case. Dust. But I cough outside and in the car (dusty) so... I don't get it. This stuck around since the cold.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Wedding's done and dusted

This is today's agenda. Ian is back again and we are binge watching Transformers Prime, doing artsy&craftsy stuff.

Slice of Life: Whirlwind end of summer

I'm still rather windswept with everything that happened. Am now a moderator of a doll group, thanks to my ability to detach my emotions...